CHAPTER 010

Is she mute?

All this time.

All this time I thought she doesn’t want to talk to me.

It turns out.

She can’t talk.

I went in to see her.
Immediately she smiles at me.
Her pretty smile.
Don’t be fool by it, underneath that smile must be pain.
Who in the whole world would laugh and smile with such an obstacle in life.

“Hi.” I said while scratching my head. “I’m sorry about last time, I was angry at something. So-So I took it out on you.” I lied.

Yet, she still smiles and nods her head.

“Here” Taehwa hyung handed me a notebook with a pencil.

“For what?” I asked.
“Don’t be an idiot! She can’t talk so use a notebook to communicate.”
“Why are you giving it to me?”
“You don’t want to talk to her?” He turns away.
“Ah-ah yes YES! Give it to me.” I snatched it out of his hand.
“Oh yeah can you take my date home too? Leave me alone here, I’ll be fine.” I just want to get rid of him and so I can confess to her.

What if she likes him because he saves her life?
I have to be the one to confess first.
Ok! This is it!

I walked toward her.

She looks unease.

She looks down.

“Uh. Uh. Do you want to talk?”

She nods.

“Will you tell me your name?” I handed her the notebook and the pencil.

She slowly and carefully writes down her name.

Jin Sunmi

She also writes something else on the paper.

Thank you for talking to me on that day.
Sorry that I made you feel like I don’t want to talk to you. It’s because I was looking for a paper to give it to you.

A paper for me?

“Do you have it with you?”

She looks at the notebook and pause. Then she writes down.

I tore it up

“Why? What did you write in that paper?”

She pauses again.

Will you. Will you wait in that spot again when next time it rain?

“Do you like the rain?”

Yes

“What so special about it?”

My older brother die in the rain

“I’m sorry.”

After the rain, there are sunshine and rainbow, they look very pretty

“So you just want to look at the rainbow?”

Rainbow are pretty, they give you happiness, after sadness you have to have happiness
After staying in the rain, after witnessing sadness, I saw rainbow. I found happiness.

It’s true, they’re very pretty. Rain is tears of sorrow that the king of heaven gives to the people of this world. He cries for us. He cries for the one that suffer. He cries for the one that suffer secretly. He cries for all the life of this world, which he created yet can’t help. The whole world suddenly becomes sad when it rain. After the rain, the sun starts to shine and the rainbow appear, telling you to be brave and face your sorrow because after all it is life. You give then you receive. Give out your tears then you will receive your happiness. So cry. Cry with the rain. Cry with the king of heaven.

“Sun Mi. I want to be your rainbow. I want to be your happiness.”

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“Where did Seung Ri go?” She asks him.
“Ah~ my younger brother had a friend to talk to, so he asked me to take you home.”
“Oh.” She nods her head in disappointment.
“Are you disappointed?” He smiles and asks her.
“No, not really.”
“Good, you look very pretty, so cheer up. You’ll find someone that truly like you soon.” He encourages her.
“How about you?” She asks curiously.
“Ha~ you’re very funny.” He gives out a sarcastic laugh. “Please get in the car so I can take you home.”
She climbs into the car with an annoying aura. He shakes his head with a smile and start steering the wheel. They pretty much annoyed each other.

Ugh! Why are girls so unpredictable? The girl at the airport throw a tantrum for no reason making me stuck there for hours. Now this one got pissed because of what I just said.

CHAPTER 009

Voices…….

Whose voices are that?

I heard that voice somewhere before……..

Oppa…..
Oppa?

“She’s moving….” A man voice near my ears.
Speaking in melody to someone….

My eyes started to move…

Oppa…

Oppa….. You’re here…..

“Are you ok?”

I must be dead…Is this heaven?

“You fainted in the middle of the street, I thought my car crash into you” he explained to me.

So I’m not dead yet.

He helps me up….
My eyes couldn’t blink…

It stares straight at him.

“What are you looking at?”

This couldn’t be.
How can he look just like oppa?

Oppa pass away a long time ago…

On that rainy day.

“Hey, what is your name?”

He asked me my name…..
All I can do is stay quiet and look at him.

“We need to know your name so we can call your family and let them know”

I’m still shocked.

“Uh….. Ah I can’t ask you for your name unless you know mine….I’m Lee Taehwa” He smile at me.

He’s friendly.

He has the same name as oppa.

Look like oppa.

Same name as oppa.

How can this be?

“Are you still shocked? “

“Sir” a doctor taps on his shoulder.
“Doctor”
“I think it’s best if you don’t disturb her for the time being”
“Right, sorry….” He smiles at me.

I smiled back at him.

His phone let out a ring.

“Hello?”
“Ah…Seung Hyun…”

Seung Hyun?

I remembered…

“My name is Seung Hyun…what’s your?”

“Uh” I startled and let out an uttered word…

“Hm? You want to talk to him?” he hand me the phone…

“Hello?” His voice comes from the other side.

I want to say something…
But couldn’t find word or make any noises.
I stayed quiet.

“It’s ok”
“Hello? Seung Hyun…hyung in the hospital”

This person and him…
This person and my oppa….

Are we all connected?

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“Mr. Lee…. She’s fine. You don’t have to worry”
“She doesn’t seem to talk much…is she still in shock?”

“HYUNG!”
“Seung Hyun”
“Are you ok? Why are you in the hospital?”
“Accident”
“Are you hurt somewhere?”
“Who’s the girl?”
“Ah…my blind date” I whispered to him.
“She’s cute”
“Not really” while talking to hyung, I glance at the ward opposite of me.

How and why is she here?

She seems to be thinking about something…

“Sorry to interrupt” The doctor interrupted us.

“Oh I’m sorry I got distracted by my younger brother, sorry about that doctor”
“It’s ok…we have examined her… it seem that she can’t speak.”

CHAPTER 008

Silent.

I am standing here.
Observing him, smiling with someone.
Someone who look pretty.
Smile pretty.
Happy.

I feel…

Am I happy?
He seems happy with her.

My eyes went up to the sky.
The blue sky.

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How long do I have to be here?
Do I have to be so courteous?
I have to smile and act like I enjoy this.

“Seung Hyun, that one look cute” she pointed to an object made out of crystal.
“Cute” I said to her out of courtesy.
Really that is ugly.

Hm… I can’t seem to think anything pretty or cute.

I wish that you were the one next to me.
I wish that you were the one that is saying the thing is cute.
I wish for your smile.
I wish……….

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Rain.

Why is it raining all of a sudden?
I don’t have my umbrella here today.

Gotta go run and hide from the falling rain.

This building…
This is where he always stands.
With his wandering eyes.

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“Why is it raining all of a sudden?”
“It was clear sky just now…. Seung Hyun let’s go inside the café.”
“Sure.” Turning around looking for a way in I spot you standing under the building.
The building I always stand hiding from the falling rain.

You look very cute.

Under that building.
Looking around with your wandering eyes.

Look up to the sky…

And you smile.
Do you really like rain that much?

Smile.

You smile at me.
For so long I have forgotten why I always stand there when it rain.

You have reminded me why.

“Seung Hyun, let’s go inside…. The other is waiting for us.” I don’t want to leave.
“What are you looking at?”
“Uh…..Nothing…just the rain” I looked up to the sky.
“Do you like rain?”

Do I like it…..
Do I like it……..

“Yeah…”

No.
What I like….
Is You…
But if you like it this much…
Then I have to admire it.
What is so interesting about it?

I want to be the rain.

“Rain is sadness…why do you like sadness?”
“Rain is sadness…but the rainbow is very pretty.” I smiled at her.
It was a true smile.
Not something out of courtesy.
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I guess he found the someone he always searching for under the rain.
I wish that you will always be happy under this rain with your rainbow.

Sigh.
I have to go home in this rain now?
I guess it’ll be fun.

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She runs home.
In the cold rain…
Normally she would wait for it to stop.
But….

Why today she run home in the rain….

With a smile.

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Running in this cold falling rain.
Is pure fun.
I grinned.

Yet water running down my face.

I stopped.

This water comes from my eyes.
Water falls in my eyes?

Water fall.

From the sky.

I looked up.

Spinning.

The earth is spinning?

Dizziness.

Blurriness.

Coldness.

So……

So….

The pavement is so cold.

The sound of raindrops.

So clear.

Siren.

The sound of siren……

CHAPTER 007

Night.
“Ah! I can’t sleep!”
“And why are you still raining!” – yelled at the thunder.
Seung Hyun, go to sleep.
Go to sleep.

This rain.
When will you stop?
When I ask you to rain you never rain.
When I don’t want you to rain. You rain.
What do you want with me?
Please stay quiet and let me go to sleep.

I wonder if she’s at that place during this time of the night….
This is not good!
Why do I keep thinking about her?

Eyes closed.
Sleep.
Sleep!

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I was in a hurry that I forgot to take it with me.
I guess now I don’t need it anymore.

A note.
Ripped into pieces.
Scattered on the floor.

Hm….it’s still raining.

Morning of a new day.
Clear sky.
Today is a beautiful day.

Hm…….

I still like raining day more though.

“Sun Mi!”

Grandpa called.

“Sun Mi, take these tea herbs to Mr. Jung”

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“Hey, Seung Hyun, let’s go out on a double date”
“I don’t want to”
“Come on, you sit here all day and look out the window, let’s go get some fresh air”
“I got some yesterday, and now I don’t want any more of them”
“Tsks…come on, please. This is my last chance for Jessica to accept me”
“Ryu hyung! No matter what you do, Jessica noona will never accept you.”
“Hey! Don’t jinx me. That girl is really cute too”
“I don’t want to go”
“It’s time for you to give up on that rain girl”
“HYUNG!”
“What?”

“Ok, fine.”
“Great”
“Who’s the girl?”
“Im Yoona! She’s really cute, Jessica’s cousin”
“Ok.”

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“Sun Mi, thank you for delivering these herbs, here is a little something for you”

Hm….
Delivery is done.
Now where to?

Eh?

It’s him!

With a girl……

CHAPTER 006

Is this the end?
The rain still pouring down water drops.
It doesn’t want to stop.

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I turn back to look at him.
The thing that I’m always afraid of.
Came true.
I can’t speak.
This illness of mine.
This is why I can never approach him during the three years.
I’ve been waiting here.
Under my umbrella.
Just for you.
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I should’ve known.
She doesn’t like me.
Those three years, have I wasted?
I turned back and look at her.
Slowly she walks under that umbrella.
Her small steps.
Look sad.
Is she crying?
Every raining day she walks home in tears.
Today, is it the same?
If so, what make you cry?
I keep wondering about you.
It’s ok.
I still consider you as my friend.
My companion.
Under this falling rain.
And so, I walk home in this rain.

Bittersweet.

Sigh.

“Why are you raining so much today?” – look up to the sky.
“And I should’ve bring an umbrella with me -__-”
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It’s not that I don’t want to tell you my name.
My voice is locked.
I can never talk.
If only you know how much I wanted to tell you who I am.
That day, you and I were the only one at that place.
I wanted to go over and ask you…

Can I stay under here with you?

But.

All I can do is walk over and smile at you.
I try to open my mouth.
But no sound.
No sound coming out.

Awkwardly.
We were the only one under that building.
I keep my distance and you keeps your.
Our eyes wander around.
Once in a while we turn to each other and smile.

I wanted to see you again the next day.
But I was sick so I can’t go out.
Were you there waiting for me?
And so.
Right after that day, I got better.
Thinking of you.

The next day.
I went there and wait to see you.
But you didn’t come and it wasn’t on a rainy day.

And so the next day.
It rain.

I walk outside with my umbrella.
Going to that place.
I spot you standing under that building.
I was happy.

However.
When I think about it.
I don’t know how to approach you.
So I stay on the other side of the street.
Looking at you.

Will you accept me?

Thinking about it.
My tears started to fall.
For three raining season.
I walk out here with a smile.

Walk home in tears.

This sad happy feeling.
It’s all coming true.

Thank you.
Thank you for being my companion.
In the falling rain.

CHAPTER 005

Three days.
It hasn’t rain for days.

Sigh.

How am I going to give this to him?

This month.
How many times will we get to see each other this month?

This is the last month.

This is the only way I can tell you.
Through this note.

Why isn’t it raining?

So many thoughts.

I keep looking out the window.
Waiting for it to rain.
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“Ah, why am I out here when it doesn’t even rain.”
“I was hoping that she would be here…but I guess it’s just like last time when we first met.”
“The next day I went out to see if you are here, you aren’t and it wasn’t on a rainy day”
“Why am I talking to myself?” –sigh

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How many times have I wiped these windows?
Please rain.
The sky look cloudy and gloomy.
But why aren’t you raining?
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“You are very gloomy and full of clouds today” – look up to the sky
“Why aren’t you raining?”
“Did you see people walking pass me and saying I’m crazy?”

Sigh.

“What!?” – A couple staring at him.
“Aish!”
I should go back.
I went a little early out here when seeing the cloudy and gloomy sky.

Yet.

It didn’t rain.
“Ah!” – Something hit him from the sky
“Wet.”
“What this?” – look up to the sky

Rain.

“It’s raining…..”
“IT’S RAINING!” – jump and laugh
“Crazy” – someone pass by him.
“HEY! SAY THAT AGAIN!”

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It’s raining.

It’s raining!
I take my umbrella with me and walk outside in the rain.
Walking to that place.
Hoping to see him there.
In the Rain.
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Will she be here?
I look around with wandering eyes.
What take her so long?
Hurry or this rain will stop.

Wandering eyes.

I kept searching for a girl under an umbrella.

These water drops.
Making these noisy sounds.
Sound like music…but do you know that you are very annoying?

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Raindrops sound.
Like music.
Through the ears.
Sound so soothing.

Yet sad.
I must quickly get to the place.

Hurry.

Hurry or the rain will stop.

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She’s here.
Under that umbrella.
Looking around with wandering eyes once again.
Who are you searching for?

“This is it Seung Hyun” – getting up all his courage
“Ok”

I passed the street to get to her.

Walking across.
Her eyes still searching.
As I walk closer.
Closer.

Closer.

Her eyes turn to me.

Trembling.
Why am I so nervous?

Why is he walking over here?

“Um….hi…”

He said hi to me.
What would I do?

“Um….. My name is Seung Hyun….what is your name?”

He’s asking me what my name is.

I…I…

The paper.

The paper.

Where is it?
I searched through my purse for it.

He’s standing there looking at me.

Awkward.

Where is that paper?

“Sorry.”

Huh?

“I don’t mean to bother you.”

So she has no interest in me?
I was hoping that the person she’s waiting for is me.
I got my hopes up so high.

Sorry is what he said to me.

He misunderstood me.

While searching for the paper.

He misunderstood me.
I don’t mean to bother you is what he said to me.
He walks away.
When he turns his back.
Tears falling down from my eyes.

To my cheeks.

I turn the other way.

Will I ever get to see him again?

My tears keep falling down.

This is so hard.

So hard.

So hard.

If only I can speak.

CHAPTER 004

It’s still clear sky today.

“Sun Mi, wipe those windows and come here”

I nodded.

This is grandpa teashop.
Umma sent me here to live with grandpa and grandma.
Each day I spend my times helping out here.

They talk I listen.
I make tea they drink.
Once in a while they ask me to smile.

I smiled.

Each day, for three years I would look outside and up the sky.

Waiting for it to rain.

“Sun Mi-ah.”

I turned to grandpa.

“Sun Mi-ah, if you want to go somewhere just go…”

I smiled and shake my head.

We continue on with our activities.
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“This class is so boring.” – sigh

“It’s boring because all day you look out the window and daydream!”

“Tsk…..better than listen to that old professor yapping.”

“Hahaha” – the class laugh
“Ahem! Excuse me?”

“Aish.”

“LEE SEUNG HYUN!”

Why is this voice sound so familiar?

I turned to see who it is…………..

To my surprise…..

“Ah~~ shh…..i…it…”

“Lee Seung Hyun!”
“Professor” – grin

The professor grins back at me.

That is the most frighten grin I have ever seen!

“Daydreaming Mr. Lee?” – Sweetly

I want to throw up!

“No….sir”
“GOOD!”

Sigh.

Why won’t you rain today?

CHAPTER 003

This day is over.

Already?

But it’s only for a moment where I get to see her.

Sigh.

Will it rain tomorrow?
I hope so.

Ran out.
Now walking back.

What is wrong with me?
I’m a guy, why am I so shy.

Tomorrow.

If it rain again.
Then I’ll get up all my courage to talk to you.

Sigh.

“YAH! SEUNG HYUN!”

“Who?”
“”Hey, I thought you said you were busy?”
“I was””
“Liar. I saw you went to that place again”
“Jiyong hyung, you are very nosy.”
“Yah, you, why do you always go there whenever it rain?”
“I like rain””
“But, but you can just go other places for rain. Why staying under that building, you can just go to a café and stay there. Dry.”
“You talk too much”
“Hey you! Who are you saying, talk too much?”

“YAH!! COME BACK HERE!”

“hyung, you should be in school by now!”– calls back to Jiyong.
“What about you?”
“Hey!”
“Seung hyun!”

Sigh.

“He’s annoying”
“Three raining seasons, for three raining seasons. I still haven’t got the courage to talk to you”
“Three years, it has been like this”
“Should I give up?”

“Sky. You better rain tomorrow”–he look up to the sky, demanding it to rain tomorrow.

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Why are my tears falling again?
Perhaps the rain makes me cry?

Or…………

Is it because he’s there?

He’s there then I should be happy.

Why did these drops of water come from my eyes and not from the sky?

Sigh.

Seeing you under that building by yourself, I want to go over and be there with you.
When will I get my courage to approach you?
When I do, how will I say it to you?
Will a note do?

I should be hurry and give it to him.

Tomorrow.
Please rain tomorrow.

CHAPTER 002

Every rainy day.
You’re always there.

Waiting.
Under your umbrella.

Who are you waiting for?

For three rainy seasons I have been here.

Waiting.

Waiting for you.

The first day we met.
You smiled at me.
That sweet smile of yours. I have to see it every day. Every day I run here just to see your face.
But you’re only here on a rainy day.

Why is that?

Do you like rain?

I hated it.

I hate waiting for a rainy day just to see your smiles.

Why won’t it rain every day?

Why won’t you be here on a normal day?

Why on rainy day?

When you here.
Your eyes wandering around.
Looking for something.

Is it someone that you’re looking for?

My eyes wander around as if searching for something.

But…………

When you’re not looking.
I glanced at you.

This rain keeps falling.
Under this building.
I’m very lonely. I want to be under that umbrella with you.
Every rainy day.

I run out here to see you under that umbrella.

Waiting.

Waiting.
And waiting.

You would smile.
…….But that smile faded in a quick glance.

What make you so sad…?
I see you so happy for a moment.

The next……

Is that a raindrop?

Or….

Is it your tears……….?

Perhaps you were using this rain to mask your tears.

Is that why you only appear on a rainy day?

To cry away your pain?

Smile and laugh.
Happiness then sadness.

You walk home in tears.

Leaving me wondering.

Pondering.

With wandering eyes.

Waiting.

Waiting for you.

In the rain.

Only on a rainy day.

Only on this day.

I get to see you.